Thursday

Back pain S1-L5 numbing under the balls of your feet 🦢

Old operation scare umm like I say you truly do t want to be sporting one of them if you can help it so bend your knees when lifting and love ❤️ your self and be nice to your back as coooweee when your older ummmm ummmm  
See the blue is were my top surgeon has already cut aways the red and the curser pointer are showing what he is going to cut aways next 
Umm 🧐 yep disks disks disks umm 🧐 and nerves verve’s nerves you get to learn about loads of it do t you when you have a good bad back 



Yep got a little black book πŸ“– with my hallucinations in :-) now truly you do t want one of them as you want to keep your self mentally fit as possible 

 Umm I had acupuncture once on my right foot 🦢 to try to regain the feeling , but umm got it in both sides now umm 🧐 I lean forwards and lean back and feel the old ache in the back and , the pain naaaa you should never worry about pain , now people in nerve pain will say lloyd shut your gob 🀐 with your don’t worry about the pain , it’s true , I am happy to power right on through pain with the help of medications, but 

You will all say but what what πŸ›‘ stops super hero 🦸‍♂️ lloyd the numbing stenotic numbness they call ☎️ it .

Umm 🧐 funny as like I knows what I feels and knows all the ins and outs as obviously πŸ™„ had an operation on my right side , 

We laugh πŸ˜‚ and joke about me and my NHS surgeon πŸ‘¨πŸΌ‍⚕️ yea we do as he not a bad chap lloyd o lloyd shut your gob zip it 🀐 he will say and say shsss 🀫 yea he does 


Lloyd we can’t just go willy nilly chopping stuff out your back , 

People with back nerve pain laid down are probably laughing out loud especially if they have had a few months of graunching as Coowee it’s so so so funny isn’t it back nerve pain ,

Like you awaken through the nights and the list is endless isn’t it to moan about , and medications phewy to what ever medication as long as it does the trick but umm never had this covid pandemic 😷 did we ummm and never had a tail back of tail backs ,like 6 million of us umm ummm


Always feels like your the only one waiting and yea probably worse then me in the queue grrrr πŸ˜– and obviously you get the morons who go lifting things stupid not using there knees , 

Or the looney toons on there motorcycle 🏍 vroom or car πŸš— bashing into each other and whip lash and bla bla bla and still in pandemic 😷.

I had my second cup of coffee ☕️ for my heart ❤️ health and burped lavender lol yea had me a lavender pill πŸ’Š as relax me there supposed to , now obviously πŸ™„ ask your doctor before copying me as ADHD and dyslexia but obviously made it through two back operations already so umm 🧐 

So pain don’t panic about the pain ok πŸ‘Œ promise you it’s not pleasant and your G.P will happily help you out with pain medication, and stretching πŸ™†‍♂️ and ice 🧊 packs and heat packs and chyropracts there good chyropracts 

Honestly my chyropract she amazing 😻 now obviously πŸ™„ ADHD and she goes like this 🀦🏻‍♀️She does she needs the whole afternoon of after listening to me , 

Umm bless her cotton socks nice maid anyways there comes a point when all the manipulations and massarging and best guns and acupuncture and yep I truly spent £1000 and £1000 thousands on my back over the years so to allow me to works but umm πŸ€” 

When you start hitting red flags 🚩 umm 🧐 and MRIs are showing up retrolisthesis disks and prolapse sequences , broken of disks and silly stuff like that umm I likes my chyropract and will allways have a little place in my heart ❤️ for her like a bird cage my heart for little angel πŸ‘Ό birds 🦒 to go land in and take a break.

Coowee honestly I would go get manipulated and she would say rest one llloyd but vroom 🏎 of I would go to a customers house umm .

I yabber I do like ten words per second type of thing she is a nurse practitioner and a chyropract did I get my moneys worth like vroom like phycologists empty your brain 🧠 cells while being manipulated lol πŸ˜‚.

Anyways don’t want her to get blamed for clicking me or manipulating me and her getting told of by the back surgeon πŸ‘¨πŸΌ‍⚕️ umm 🧐 so let her fly my little angel πŸ‘Ό chyropract so yea years and years and years you can keep going on and trying to work even if it’s like part time as I went to a disabled college and did a course ,

Anyways sorry woffling getting to the point I go all around the houses before getting to the point my ADHD Phyciatrist’s sits there with his pad and let’s me rabble aways and picks out key πŸ”‘ words so so so interesting and clever my NHS Phyciatrist’s like the matrix looks at humans in 0011 1010 1100 01010 

I go in to my NHS Phyciatrist’s and he says get out now lloyd shoooe you get out times up I say I havnt up set you have I he says no lloyd I say you do look upset 😭 I havnt upset you have I no no no lloyd get out out out πŸ˜‚ 


Anyway obviously πŸ™„ having a lay down after my coffee ☕️ and my burp of lavender and was going to just say yep blunting stenosis stenotic numbness is the name of the game . So my little tip 

It creeps up on you slowly over the years I guess or through the week or through the day depending on your damaged bulging disks that push into the old central nerve and vroom 🏎 it can come and go and you think nowt about it or you just give your leg a shake or think πŸ€” umm shoes πŸ‘ž change shoes maybe πŸ€” numbing is the shoes tricky isn’t it as everyone gets old umm 

I likes to ride my electric bike 🚴 but obviously πŸ™„ bouncing on the old S1-L5 and all the rest soon πŸ”œ put stenotic numbness in my feet 🦢 umm 

So like I say mega painfull operations are talking warp 10 and umm 🧐 some might be lucky πŸ€ but umm don’t ever think a back operation will take all the pain away 

They are the last resort and I likes my back surgeon as he is truthful he said lloyd it won’t take all the pain aways but vroom it will get the left nerve pain relief umm it’s chopping and changing from left to right a bit but hay ho 

Now obviously πŸ™„ sorry to be so black and white complicated back surgery’s are chopping bones 🦴 aways and stuff lol πŸ˜‚, now obviously πŸ™„ if your laid in pain you will have loads of time on your hands and quite happily read what I write ✍️ umm 🧐 I knows loads on backs 

I means loads and qualifications in engineering and all sorts and yea yea yea I say what’s that and what’s that and what’s that to my back surgeon πŸ‘¨πŸΌ‍⚕️ and cook his noodles but umm 🧐 obviously πŸ™„ got to ask these little things 

Then he puts the contract to slice and dice your back aways to his hearts πŸ₯° content probably listening to baithoven while I’m out cold , 

LOL πŸ˜‚ I don’t even read the contract just sign it lol πŸ˜‚ I have a high court barrister said lloyd you dump arse dyslexia fool if you ever needs anything read that you don’t understand then bring it to me you retard lol don’t you just love ❤️ old people 

So gave him one of my operation contracts and he throw it back at me and yep said idiot lol πŸ˜‚.


Umm 🧐 right little lay down and tip tap aways to you lot and will test my little size 12 feet 🦢 out and see if I feels any stenotic numbing still lol πŸ˜‚ umm if I do then it’s film πŸŽ₯ time one thinks and a few pills πŸ’Š and relax onwards :-) wish all of you the best and be good to your backs as ummm ummm when your older Coowee you might say yea yea yea but believe you me I been and do knows good pain :-) 

There my last operation in the blue is where the disk was cut aways and in the red is where my surgeon promised me he would chop that part aways at some point lol πŸ˜‚ Coowee like waiting for a train that never came but yea yea covid covid covid , 

If your really a wolly you can keep doing things and make the pain worse and up the medications and then you can look a molly telling a phyciatrist about your hallucinations lol ,  I was overdosed though by the pharmacy but she looked at me and I new she was truly upset 😭 at Overdossing me so umm let her of umm grrrrr never had hallucinations before being overdosed anyways just warning ⚠️ you it’s not just back pains you got to be looking after it’s your kidneys liver stomach eating healthy Coowee you had to hit a life still button change when you gets a good bad back , yep you name it I have probably tried it every cream 🌿 everything lol πŸ˜‚ then if you strat trying all sorts of herbs 🌿 always tell your doctor even if it’s marijuana or something it’s nowt to be telling your doctor and at least they knows what your up to vroom πŸ₯°πŸ˜˜ pray πŸ™ for all of you one will light a candle tonight for all the people with bad backs :-) ✝️☪️πŸ•‰☯️πŸ•ŽπŸ”―✡️☸️☸️☦️⛎♈️♈️ I’m ok with most religions as they got nice bits in most of them so it matters not what creed or colour you are candle πŸ•― and a prayer πŸ™ for you all cheers vroom sorry got ADHD and babbled on a tad cheers 

Inspector clusoo Lloyd πŸ€¦πŸ»πŸ™ˆπŸ™‰πŸ™ŠπŸ€Ή‍♀️

Umm searched a good search πŸ” and taking a pew arrr I have this dyson and it’s one of those baby dysons and ran the battery πŸ”‹ down umm 🧐 
You know when it’s put in a safe place don’t you there wasn’t that much left in the bottle but umm πŸ€” 🧩 puzzles 🧩 me anyways chuffed I suppose I have done a bit of cleaning 🧹 yea I do have another bottle of morphine but that’s not the point umm, yea looked in the fridge and in the oven umm 🧐 I thinks umm just incase I get broken into I will hide the medication type of thing probably went through my mind makes no real odds as only takes it when I aches I lift my shoulder and lol πŸ˜‚ honestly no amount of morphine takes that pain aways so lol don’t even have to lean backwards or forwards really to test the back umm but that’s still not the point one ☝️ will keep searching and tidying along the way as I do remember having a spoon πŸ₯„ of it I’m sure I do about 2:30 πŸ• in the morning umm glad I only have a tiny house 🏑 to be searching Coowee me mum and dad sai right were coming to visit you 🏴‍☠️ son lloyd I said o no no no no yoir not lol I said we are getting along really well lol πŸ˜‚ come on that’s funny πŸ˜„ we’ll we are umm one will tell her I have had a bit of a clean up looking for my morphine bottle and she will go 🀦🏻‍♀️That boy is tidying up 🧹 my dad will say why mother will say he looking for his morphine bottle he put down somewhere 🀦🏻‍♀️And they will say umm 🀦🏻Bless the lord works in mysterious ways with are son lloyd yea cheers angels πŸ‘Ό for that little number , not really to do with clocks and watches but umm πŸ€” you can see one is looking after one’s self with a few disabilities going on arrrrr me ship mates onwards I’m laughing out loud as umm where did I hide 😢‍🌫️ it bot tired 😴 as truly not a lot of sleep πŸ’€ as soon as I lay down my watch counts it as sleeping for some crazy reason . Yea yea yes it’s got all sorts on it if I fall over and knock my self out it will wring the emergency 🚨 services and obviously πŸ™„ of heart ❤️ stops doesn’t the same so yep technology umm 🧐 think think think πŸ€” 
Every so often I throw my empty bottles of morphine aways in the dust bin πŸ—‘ and Coowee it’s so embarrassing πŸ™ˆ being on morphine like I get put in the corner anyways as got ADHD but umm told my nabours and they like really snotty about it like I’m vermin umm πŸ€” anyways ummm 🧐 obviously not phased by what people think as got ADHD and dyslexia anyways so sod the telling them about the morphine.
I was having a fag out side and my next door nabour used to smoke as well and obviously πŸ™„ we would say hi bla bla bla bla and umm 
And umm kind of miss his head sticking over the fence he had a bad stomach once and was on morphine so obviously πŸ™„ i told him o was on it for my back and he used to woffle on about hallucinations and I thought what a wolly and umm 🧐 he probably rolling around on his cloud ⛅️ looking down  and thinking ha ha ha as I have a book πŸ“– of hallucinations umm and poppped a bottle down somewhere umm that would of made him laugh this morning if I saw him and told him tidying up 🧹 as lost me morphine lol πŸ˜‚ bless 
See little things like that you miss don’t you with your nabours bless we will all say a little prayer πŸ™ for him , rest in peace nabour ✝️ Time heals they say ummm I truly have had to many people die on me I feel like the grim reeper I was telling my mate why o why did I pick a job that involved so many old people , like I said over 15 years I said I made Freinds with the old ones and vroom hated when they died so will say a prayer πŸ™ for them lot as well and go have another fag and another little clean 🧼 up and searching will carry on . Some one will ask me lloyd what you do on Thursday I will say searches for a bottle of morphine lol πŸ˜‚ well it had a tad left in it I am sure a message in a bottle may be I emptied it and put a message in it and popped it in the river lol shssssss joking πŸ™ƒ onwards I heard coffee ☕️ was good for the heart ❤️ so two cups a day so next one I guess not to worry my Apple Watch says Oy lloyd stop πŸ›‘ and realax and stuff like that 
Fusions umm 









 Coowee yea been sat on a boat in 50 digress and in the duldrums so umm that’s hot ummm the duldrums now Coowee people think they got things tough you sit in the duldrums in the middle of the Atlantic for a few days and I spect you would say umm πŸ€” life isn’t so bad 

ADHD Umm tidying lol πŸ˜‚

Umm funny with ADHD you pick somthing up and put it down and think where is it but if your sleep walking Coowee umm needs to have a bit of rainy up but my NHS back surgeon Coowee he will be rolling around laughing saying right I will clip that lloyd across the head when I catch up with him la la la la la la now where did I put that bottle of morphine lol sounds terrible doesn’t it lol proper pirates 🏴‍☠️ goings on all the lady’s that knows me will be saying what me surgeon πŸ‘¨πŸΌ‍⚕️ will be saying you just wait one lloyd you just wait your time with come lol πŸ˜‚ 



Chill how far can of it got to anyways a little tidying won’t go a miss arrrr pirates captain flint pirate 🏴‍☠️
Funny me mother will say what you been up to lad umm looking for the morphine lol πŸ˜‚ that sounds silly as well telling your mother that , you should try telling your mother your senses ghosts and hearing voices lol πŸ˜‚ πŸ™ŠπŸ™‰πŸ™ˆπŸ€¦πŸ»πŸ€·πŸ½‍♂️ Bet your saying noooo yea and then I have to tell my Phyciatrist’s lol arrrr shsssssss secret 🀐 ok mums the word on my little tidy up 🧹 to find thins bottle of morphine magnifying glasses πŸ” lol πŸ˜‚ 





 

Right a tidy up 🧹

 Umm all ways a good idea to tidy up 🧹 when me bottle of morphine has gone missing umm , 

Yep you lot might roll around on the floor saying RBD-REM dream disorders yea , 

I awake up in the morning and think how did that get there spooky πŸ‘» lol πŸ˜‚ umm wonder were I put that bottle of morphine to umm πŸ€” like I say tidy up 🧹 and see through the trees 🌲 🌳 🌲 trees a bit umm my NHS surgeon  πŸ§‘πŸΌ‍⚕️ Coowee he would or will clip me across the head when he catches up with me that’s for sure arrr me ship mates :-) on the hunt for me twinkle toes who sleep walks yep Coowee have I got some funny story’s of sleep walking umm , anyways shssss mums the word lol don’t tell me back surgeon πŸ‘¨πŸΌ‍⚕️ lol πŸ˜‚ you got to laugh πŸ˜‚ umm life is to short to cry 😭 lol 



Wednesday

Clonazepam

 ADHD and back nerve pain umm and still suffering from when I was overdosed , my NHS doctors complain but there not the ones awake all night are they ummm , 

It’s not funny and people wonder why I don’t answer my phone πŸ“± well my Phyciatrist’s told me to expresso my self so just explaining little issues like not sleeping through the night doesn’t do anyone any good does it NHS so pardon me for popping a third clonazepam at 4:30 πŸ•Ÿ umm bit of a rubbish old year but umm plough on through had a few spoons of morphine through the day yesterday and one through the night so truly I should be well asleep πŸ’€, anyways hopefully πŸ™ number 3 will work as needs a few hours Kip that’s for sure sorry customers like I say told to expresso my self by my Phyciatrist’s, umm not a bad excuse though duff back and crazy old mind ticking over to fast I shut the eyes and it’s vroom like a slid show nights zzz πŸ’€ 






Funny secrets 😜🀐

 The doctors didn’t know about my back damage and hernias in my stomach or my shoulder umm, the Ex didn’t know either nore did the kids , vroom she said now your free as a bird πŸ¦….

Umm yep free to be in pain and take pills πŸ’Š πŸ₯³ woohoo bless there cotton socks there free as birds as well lol πŸ˜‚ 

Life is a funny old game isn’t it vroom nice light house Coowee it takes a good battering but Coowee I bet on the good days you could see for miles and do a bit of fishing 🎣 great light houses are bless , you had to watch out for the people on shaw though with there lights in the old days Coowee ,
Umm time and shipping , now people just look at there phones πŸ“± umm πŸ€” tick tock . Umm is anyone ever free as a bird ummm bless 
Bless I got this Phyciatrist’s and thought umm never trusted anybody give him a go in the trust graph section and umm guess who told him about my back before I had my MRI LOL umm that was so funny ,soon as I ever see he is just fake then vroom , you lot will say poor him yea poor him lol bless his cotton socks , 🀷fait lol πŸ˜‚ who knows why things happen who knows why people live or die ummm , strange one that it really is . Bless there sure must be an angel πŸ‘Ό playing with my heart ❤️:-) 
It’s a bit like sailing ⛵️ in the dark keeping a spiniker full pardon my bad gramma dyslexia πŸ™‹‍♂️πŸ™ŠπŸ™‰πŸ™ˆπŸ€Ή‍♀️🧩🎰 Angel πŸ‘Ό s       ✝️ Beautiful 😍 my Phyciatrist’s said can you do it I said yea I can umm bless as the angels πŸ‘Ό look after me :-) 


Sunday

Still getting panic attacks

 Sorry still getting panic attacks from when I was overdosed as well like 3:00 πŸ•’ chest pains and stuff like that anyways all me doctors and Phyciatrist’s knows about that so umm don’t needs that along with my back 

Can’t do anything about them 
Hopefully πŸ™ the brain will chill but umm caffeine medications vroom if scared then vroom they creep in so if I worry about my back and stufff catch 22 so umm it’s not just my back customers got this little issues going on to